Anti - Social Rehab Day 1

Sometimes I just need some alone time, ....by myself listening to music, drinking tea and writting this blog that I dont care if i missed a period or commas or they are all grammatically wrong because i don't care no more to be perfect. I am tired of everything lately. People say this all because of SAD, seasonal affective disorder or i am pmsing. But I call this is a time for self-reflection. For the past 2 weeks, I have been feeling down and just depressed on things. everyone in the house thinks im so grumpy lately and started to asking me if anything wrong. well none of my closed friends know wut im doing...or if im emotionally stabled. even tho my friends have always been supportive, they think my sudden sadness come from that stupid asshole, but honestly, I dont even miss him that much (actually not at all), my life is normal everyday. now I am more into my family, studying and career. I see everyone has a dream and ambitious...and what am I doing here? I just come home from work and do nothing....wtf = =...and recently I just can't accept whatever ppl are telling me. you may call me a freak , selfish or w/e. whenever i hate someone...especially SOME ONE SHITTTY....I just cant change my perspective. sorry i cant...i know i have been making you feel sorry. but I just can't and accept the fact. well u might say im a psycho freak or a bitch. and maybe this whole entire shit has nothing to do with me. i mean i find it hard to accept it and i know im not your mom...maybe im too homesick and this whole coop experience is driving me crazy. BUT SORRY I WILL NOT WANT TO THAT SHIT IN MY LIFE. I AM SORRY!

now, i just don't want to associate with the world anymore. today i went with my team to curling, even i fell and had a big bruise on my right leg. but at least i felt like i was enjoying it and having tons of fun....i feel relieved and i love the ppl i work with. they are so nice. tonight my roomie is going to make a big dinner. i hope i feel free again and i am grateful to have my roomies here :)

tmr i will be going to the museum by myself. i think i need to have more alone time...i don't want to get back to the world yet. maybe give me more time in new year or something.

one says making yourself anti-social is like committing suicide....i don't think so. i don't know how long this thing is going to take, it might take forever.

who knows.....everything is unexpected.

The So Called "Mumps..."

So, the holidays went pretty...amazingly well except I scared myself that I thought I got my mumps back...after 10 years (i got them twice even though i got vaccinated before, wth）.

Today I went to the doctor and he said my "mumps" were actually some sort of infections and I had to to apply some cream and eat pills 3 times a day... = =

Okay...the gay thing is...the doctor said I had lost weight..thats so unhealthy and blah..he said my current weight is 112 lb...ARE YOU SERIOUS?! I weighted myself @ my rez before the holidays and the result was ...117 lb......so ...I concluded that..the old random scale @ my doctor's place is WRONG!

Okay few days ago I went to boxing day shopping like most ppl did...

hm didnt get much ,except some long sleeves and business casuals @ Zara.

Here is a picture of the famous..Swarvoski Xmas Tree @ Eatons...so sicken tired of seeing it every year = =



Okay that's it for now...going to Ottawa in few days...haha = =

-KX

FML in Holiday Mode

Slept less than like ...5 hours and went to UW to pack up rest of my stuffs in rez...the whole entire time packing , my dad annoyed me to hell for not cleaning up and packing my stuffs beforehand...like common dad...I HAD EXAMS.

then got bk..went to Congee Wong for afternoon tea....

went home to clean up...and went to drop off some stuffs at roommates place.....which it made me late for my special date with 12 sexy girls and 2 ...guys..LOL sorry for waiting for me at STC for an hour!

so...13 girls + 2 guys went to eat at some Italian restaurant and went to drink afterward....it was alright. something exciting for the holidays....


a pic of me and my sexy bitch XD


okay thats it for now.....................FML I NEED A PLACE TO LIVE IN OTTAWA FOR MY COOP JOB...........................FACK

FML

I HATE LIFEEEEEE



FUCKING AUDIT................................... GO DIEEEEEE!!!!!

the ironic thing is....i will be doing audit for my coop term..............

GG ...

Something that makes me happy...for a bit..

yesterday I spent like 8 hours marking non-stopped for AFM101 exams.....wow I never given so much zeroes in my life before...tons of students bombed the question I was marking.....so 1500 students...i marked at least 300 of them..and I think i failed more than 200 of them.....lmao..then i moved on to mark other questions...this one is sightly better....i gv tons of perfect..

anyways...so around 4-ish...my bbf came over too cuz he was done marking other exam too....yup

then he treated me M&M`s ..we got 2 of them..cuz I was so stupid..the M&M i picked got stucked...in the vending machines.. = = so black...

so we finally done marking at 8 :30 pm..and we didnt wanna go home..and walked all the way from Campus to McDonalds...and the stupidest thing is...he doesnt like wearing winter jacket = =....so it was freezing for him..and he said it was fine..so stupid.....

went to McDonalds...I ordered Fillet O`fish..omgosh hvnt had that for as a long time....taste so good
we sat at M for a long time and afterward i claimed that i was hungry and wanted to buy Apple pie but dun wanna..cuz i feel fat...and then he went to order stuffs for his roomate to bring bk...

so once we got out of Mcdonalds...he handed me a warm apple pie (so unexpected = =)......yuppp cuz he wanted me to be 豬排......he said girls eat non stopped r 豬排......

my bbf is so gay.... = =


the apple pie and M&M he bought....

k time to study my audit final ==

!@@#$$@!!#$%

Pretty messed up right now...

failing....

can't find a place to live in Ottawa...

fml.......................


and o yah...audit exam on monday...hvnt touched the book yet...okay fkkk

Stats makes me wanna commit suicide....

fk....i need to pass tat damn thing............................



fml